Can't Come Back - Chapter 51
“What, what did you say…?”
Did she hear it right? Was Cain needed for the war? Berlia inquired of her servant.
“His Majesty has ordered Cain, Duke Hildayden, to participate in the war.”
But the response just verified what she had already heard.
“You are to leave for the border immediately after the funeral of the late Duke Hildayden. The deadline is in 5 days. That’s all I have for now.”
The servant walked away after saying these remarks. Berlia couldn’t believe what she was seeing. Her legs buckled beneath her.
“Sister-in-law. Are you okay?”
“Ca, Cain… I… I…”
Berlia’s eyes welled up with tears. Cain appeared to know what she wanted to say. He embraced her and murmured something into her ear.
“There are many eyes on you right now. Please come to the attic later.”
Many servants were dispatched to transport Dean’s body, as he had stated. Berlia nodded slightly as she looked at Cain’s face.
Dean’s casket was carried into the residence by staff. Berlia followed them into the home hesitantly.
“The Duchess looks very pale.”
“Her husband recently died. She is, after all, pale. She couldn’t have been blind to the corpse.”
Maidens muttered as they gazed at the pale Berlia. But the reality was quite different from what they had anticipated.
‘Cain… in the battleground…’
Berlia’s mind was racing with ideas concerning Cain’s involvement in the war. Dean, she learned, did not fight at the front. He died despite being in a relatively safe location. Who knows how deadly other locations might be?
Berlia went straight to the attic after the situation had calmed down a little. Cain had not yet come. She was concerned that something terrible would happen to Cain.
“You came first, Berlia.”
Berlia hugged Cain as soon as he entered the attic.
“Sob, sob, sob. What should we do?”
She was in tears. Berlia, who was tucked in Cain’s arms, was being soothed.
“Calm down, Berlia.”
“Participation… In war, sob. Does His Majesty wish… Sob… to extinguish Duke Hildayden’s bloodline?”
She asked, her voice choking. She was, in fact, correct. Typically, brothers do not fight in the same war. They had to continue the family line.
“But we don’t have an option. It is His Majesty’s order.”
However, Cain received great honors for his outstanding swordsmanship at the academy. The Emperor was aware of this and dispatched Cain to bolster his forces.
“How do you keep your cool, Cain? You could end up dead! My heart is racing because I’m terrified about what can happen…, Cain…”
Her voice became strangled with passion, and she burst into tears. Tears began to fall down her cheeks. She couldn’t picture her life without Cain. She felt as if nothing would remain without him. Berlia sobbed in Cain’s embrace.
“Don’t worry, Berlia. I will return safely.” Cain reassured her, clutching her close.
“Believe me. I will see you again.”
* * *
Cain was given five days by the Emperor. During that time, he was supposed to finish Dean’s burial and prepare for his departure. Cain and Berlia held Dean’s burial the day after his body arrived at the estate.
Berlia and Cain spent every night together after that. They fell asleep in each other’s arms as if they couldn’t take being apart.
So the final night arrived. The day Berlia had hoped would never come had arrived. Cain had to leave for the borders in a few hours, as the sun rose in the east. It wasn’t just a dispatch; it was a journey to the battlefield where his life was on the line. Furthermore, her husband Dean had returned home dead after being assigned to a seemingly safe mission. She couldn’t help but be concerned about Cain.
“I can’t believe tomorrow’s the big day…”
“Time seems to fly.”
“I wished today would never come…”
“But, as quickly as time flies, I’ll be back before you know it.”
Berlia was in bed with Cain as usual that night. After all, it was the last night.
Cain looked at Berlia, who glanced at him with concern.
“Do you know how long it took for us to be able to fall asleep in this bed together?”
“Three and a half years.”
“Compared to that, this war will be short.”
“Well, that’s true.”
They met for the first time about four years ago. Their current wait was significantly less than when they loved each other without understanding it. Berlia agreed with a nod.
“I vividly recall the first time we slept together.”
It was the account of the first time Berlia declared her love to Cain. They had assumed their relationship was purely physical due to misconceptions. It was cruel and painful for them to return to their separate rooms following their encounters. Every day, he wished to sleep with her in his arms.
But it felt normal for her to be in his arms now.
“I’m grateful you had the courage to speak up first, Berlia.”
“Cain, it’s because you contacted me initially that we ended up this way. It is I who should be grateful.”
“However, my approach was a little off back then.”
Cain was the first to approach Berlia. Cain, on the other hand, didn’t grasp Berlia’s feelings at the time. She was merely his sister-in-law to him, an untouchable figure.
Then, due to the erroneous concept of wanting to have her body even for a few while, it almost led to a further misunderstanding in their relationship.
“The temptation of you that day… I couldn’t resist.”
Cain’s penis started to harden around that time. Berlia curled in his arms and could feel him hardening.
“… We should get some sleep soon.”
Cain closed his eyes and pretended not to notice. It would have subsided in a short time.
“It doesn’t seem proper to sleep this way. Please hug me.”
“Aren’t I holding you in my arms right now?”
“Nothing like this.”
Cain surprisedly opened his eyes. He hadn’t expected Berlia to start the conversation. Of course, Cain didn’t want to do it. Berlia, on the other hand, was still recuperating.
Cain couldn’t push someone like that, so he waited until Berlia’s body was fully recovered.
“It isn’t conceivable. I’m not going to push you.”
He approached her with caution.
“You’re probably not fully recovered just yet.”
“I want to, Cain.”
“It’s been more than a month. You previously said that I was almost totally recovered. Right?”
Berlia grumbled. Cain asked multiple times if she was all right. Berlia’s response, though, remained unchanged.
“Are you okay?”
“…I get it.”
Cain brushed his lips lightly across Berlia’s brow. They have to part ways after today. Cain had no choice but to hold her on a day like this.
His hand began to undress her. Berlia’s pale skin was exposed. Cain didn’t stop until she was completely undressed. She was soon naked.
Berlia’s body trembled slightly, possibly due to shame.
“Are you shaking?”
Berlia hesitated to admit it because she was embarrassed. Even though they’d had sex more than once or twice, they appeared oddly bashful now.
‘Is it because I’m finally exhibiting Cain my body after a long time?’
Cain, on the other hand, seems to interpret her hesitancy differently. Cain’s brow furrowed slightly. He assumed her tremors were caused by fright.
“I think it’s better not to do it.”
He made a shaky motion with his head. It could have been terrifying. She recently lost a child, and they’re discussing getting back together.
“I think I was a little too hasty.”
Cain attempted to dress her. But Berlia grabbed his hand quickly to stop him.
“I’m not afraid. I really, really want to…”
She was genuine. Her physique was very fine. It was his last night before leaving. She didn’t want to spend the night alone.
“Oh, Berlia. Did you want it so badly?”
“That, that is…”
For a brief moment, Cain laughed gently. In her desperation, she was adorable. Berlia reddened with humiliation. Cain inquired once more of her.
“Are you sure you’re all right? I’ve reached my limit as well. Berlia, I can’t go back.”
She nodded slowly. Cain dropped his head slowly towards her, a lovely smile on his face.
“I wanted it, too.”
As he concluded his words, Cain’s lips met Berlia’s.
His tongue entered her mouth. She’d kissed him many times before, but each time it felt good. Berlia closed her eyes slowly. Cain massaged her waist with his warm hand.
He ran his fingers through Berlia’s hair with his other hand. Berlia thought his touch to be unbearably pleasurable.
She, too, sucked on Cain’s lips slowly. Their tongues became entwined.
As a result, they silently explored each other until their lips parted. Cain climbed over Berlia and laid her down. He put his mouth to her erect breast without hesitation.
Cain’s tongue tickled each of her nipples individually. Berlia twitched all over whenever his tongue went gently. It was the most stimulation she’d felt in a long time. It appeared to be more sensitive than usual.
His right hand grabbed the other nipple. Berlia’s body sprung up reflexively at that instant. Her lower abdomen began to get wet.