A Guide to a Perfect Death - Chapter 5
She needed something to hold on to. To stay sane in this violent whirlpool, she had to reach out and grab anything. She set up her nails and scratched Ragnar’s back and shoulders, but that was not enough to stop him. The pulsating sound in her ear was painful.
The place where they touched was so hot, to the point that it seemed to melt. It was the first time in her life that she’s ever felt this way. At the same time, the waves of the gentle guiding penetrated her as if touching her whole body. The wavelength seemed to melt her brain in the midst of the chaos.
“Yes, uh, ah, ah!”
“Oh, damn it.”
Ragnar’s expression turned dark. Now his movement is a little more persistent and urgent. The sensation became a little sharper and more intense. Something huge and hot squeezes her whole body. A hot and thrilling sensation dominated her body.
“Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh… Ah! Ah! Ah!”
Painful pleasure rises in every spot he scratches. There was a cry that came out of her from the strong feeling that was hard to bear. Her head, which had become muddy, could no longer accept anything except for the sense of climax.
Her inner wall, which was being swamped randomly, trembled and convulsed. Then, his penis, which she wondered if it could get any bigger, swelled up, and was eager to scan and scratch her groin. Her toes curl up automatically and she feels numb all over. Her body shook incessantly. She felt like I was going to die.
She’s afraid she won’t be able to sleep easily.
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It was a week before the banquet that Christa Palmarill went back in time.
“Why in the world…”
It was the liberation of her long suffering that ended her life of 28 years.
She didn’t imagine there would be a second life because she took her last breath after being tortured until she died.
She wailed for a long time in the mirror. She’s back. That was 5 years ago. It was not yet time for her to wake up as a complete ‘Esper’.
That’s why she decided to send a present herself. The gift of death.
Christa Palmaril, born as a daughter of a baron. Her mother gave birth to her from an extra-marital affair and died of postpartum fever. As an illegitimate child, who was raised without parents, she was handed over to her aunt, Baroness Eva Palmaril, and her husband, Baron Sebastian Palmaril, while moving from house to house of several relatives.
Since then, she has been severely abused and disrespected by the Palmaril, and has become a scoundrel of the family. Sometimes when she asked about her parents, it was a day when she had to put up with Eva’s strong beating all day. But Christa endured that silently without screaming.
It was the title she heard more than her name from Baroness Palmaril.
The reason for this was Christa’s eccentricity. She often did strange things that she couldn’t understand herself. A burning sensation in one’s head. She knew it was the beginning.
“Ah! Mom! She’s doing it again.”
That day was the day when she and her cousin Andrei had a particular quarrel. She ripped Andrei’s face and she could not get out of her room for days afterwards.
The problem was that she couldn’t remember anything after the incident. It was dark as if she had sprayed black paint all over her mind. She was in fear that she did not know what she had done.
This was during the time when it was not yet well known about the special ability called “Esper.” Their frequent outbursts were merely regarded as a freakish psychosis.
This bustle became more frequent as Christa grew older. Everything was ruined by her hands. And then she was beaten without fail. To the point where she doesn’t die. What’s surprising is that no matter how badly Christa got hurt, most of it healed the next day. A few days later, there was not even a trace.
Regenerative ability. That was her awakening ability. Thanks to her ability, she healed quickly even if she had been injured severely.
The ability to regenerate was, after all, the ability to deal with vitality. This was not limited to healing power. With Class F to C healing ability, self-healing is possible, but if it exceeds Class B, it can absorb other people’s lives and use them as energy.
Christa was drafted into the Unification War on behalf of her cousin Andrei. At that time, her heartless aunt also hummed and begged her.
“Please? Shouldn’t Andrei continue the family? Think about the bond we had when we’ve raised you so far.”
Christa did not reject the request she received. It was boring, but considering her healing power, she didn’t think she would die at the very least. So she headed to the battlefield.
Christa’s eccentricity was not revealed until she entered the military. She was an ‘awakening’ who was at the center of the recent controversy.
Ether, the source of magic, disappeared over the years. It was the appearance of an awakening person with new power that appeared sporadically after the Ether disappeared. The title Esper was later given.
In the early days, awakening was considered a new ability to replace magic. However, it was quickly revealed that this idea was wrong.
As can be seen in the choice of the word awakening, their characteristics were always in a state of continuous awakening. As time went by, they suffered from sleep deprivation, persistent headaches, hallucinations, nausea, and even phantom pains. In addition, in the end, they could devastate an area by an explosion.
When Esper explodes, their ability is opened to the fullest. If they had the ability of fire, they could make their surroundings a sea of fire, and if they had the ability to water, they could drown people one after the other.
The inability to control it is a kind of disaster. The awakening people gradually became a nuisance. The public opinion began to change little by little when it discovered the ability of a “guide” to lead awakening people.
The beginning was the screening. Soldiers who joined the military had to undergo screening twice a year. Depending on the potential of the force, it was managed by dividing it into ranks from S-grade to F-grade-level to measure.
The runaway of the awakening was a more serious problem as the rating went up. Therefore, Esper with grade C or higher had to be managed by a group and assigned a dedicated guide or carry an inhibitor, a drug extracted from the guide’s blood.
Christa was able to endure without a guide for a long time because of her low grade.
Christa earned trophies and money by making several contributions to the conscripted war instead of Andrei. All the money was brought to her aunt. The Palmaril baron’s finances have been in bad shape ever since Baron Sebastian took up gambling.
Christa didn’t covet anything more than she needed. Just enough money to maintain and keep her own armor and sword. However, if she was obsessed with something, it was the battlefield. Even after the mandatory conscription period ended, she continued to go to war.
It may be because her mettle did not seem strange there, which was on the border between life and death. She gradually gained credit and became a knight.
“As she went to the battlefield, her eyes became even more creepy. I feel bad.”
“She’s going to die soon. I heard that an Esper often runs wild and ends their life.”
Every time Christa returned home, Baroness Palmaril whispered as if she had come back from the undead. But Christa went back to the battlefield silently.
This is the only place that she can relieve her anxiety that she will not be able to control herself someday. So the battlefield was the place she really needed to be.
But the war ended. The three countries were unified and Christa lost her place.
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